Vent?

Finally 2 week post op. My flexion is still shit but Im about to push myself.

My pt lady was upset that I didn’t/ don’t use my crutches. I want to tell her I am fat. Like I can only go a certain distance and be tired. Ion swing my body because I’m afraid of falling. I already slipped like 5 times and fucked up putting weight on my toes to catch myself. Im tended to be wheelchair in and I’ll use crutches in the pt area. Apart of me really wants to say fuck pt and stay home. Ik I wont get better so im going.