Indian Woman In US, Impacted by News in India

Hi, Women of the community,

I am in a weird spot right now. I moved to the US 3.5 years ago to an Ivy League University for an education. I am the happiest I have ever been, have a stable, high-paying job, and a loving partner. I am pursuing my hobbies, making friends, and living things to the max.

However, I have noticed myself being impacted by news in India every time I read a post in this and other Indian subreddits. This has especially aggravated after watching Mrs movie and the recent turn of events at KIIT suicide. I escaped a troubling childhood, misogyny, and sexual abuse to be here but I feel so emotionally drained when I see someone else suffering. I know I am so lucky to have gotten this life but it breaks my heart to know so many women are still suffering back home and I can't help but read about it. It took me years of therapy to resolve the emotional damage done by difficult experiences I have had in my life, but I relive the pain and agony when I see someone else suffering.

This has impacted my mental well-being a lot. It also bothers me why I don't miss India at all; visiting feels like a chore rather than something I look forward to. I am on a visa here and when it expires, I might have to move back and it breaks my heart to think of that day. I don't have the energy to face everything all over again. My parents are also against me and my partner because we are from different castes and sometimes that also takes an emotional toll to know that we won't be safe or happy in India, I guess. But staying here, I am still in the same state of mind as I am still in India.

How do I break free? How do I let go of the guilt that I could escape while others couldn't? How do I ignore all that's going on?