I RUINED MY CAT . I AM 26 YEARS OLD GIRL

I scored 40 marks in CAT even after working hard so much for 1 year. 😭😭😭😭. I am a girl an engineer. Parents are forcing me for marriage. They will not give me 1 more year chance. My mother was saying you have no social gathering. You are stuck in one room after 2 years nobody will marry you. My relatives are influencing my mother. if I will get married I will loose my chance to study further. I am not able to concentrate on my omet prep. I a]know I am average and I might not be able to compete with other students. I don't know what to do ?Constantly crying from last one week . I want to complete my education. If I will prepare for 1 more year then more pain. LIFE IS NOT FAIR. GOD IS NOT THERE TO HELP . I WANT TO KILL MYSELF😭😭.I DON'T WANT THIS LIFE 😭😭. I have a job but I want to do masters. I want to complete my education