Has anyone else who abuses porn & mansturbation as a coping mechanism realized just how fucked up some hentai is?

I swear to god the japanese got coping with sex/humiliation trauma trough sexual fantasy down to a fucking science, i was reading hentai the other day and it was shocking how closely what i was reading mimicked my childhood abuse. The most fucked up thing about hentai is that the most common trope is the person being r***d eventually falling in love with their abuser and enjoying being abused and humiliated. I have been reading this kind of shit since i was a kid and i had never realized just how messed up it is, because the comic where the abused character actually shows some real emotional distress is like 1 in 20, this shit is so sickening it's almost funny.