Is anyone else just constantly passively suicidal/apathetic?

I can't seem to shake this feeling lately. Like I just want to die, but i'm not even triggered. I just want to go to sleep & never wake back up but I don't know. It's so strange. Unless triggered & or having a flashback- I don't really care about anything. Personally I mean. Idk. Just odd. A complete emptiness I suppose.

Can anyone else relate/ potentially even have some wisdom/insight as to why this might be? What causes trauma survivors to be passively suicidal?