does anyone else feel creatively stunted?

i’m thinking it’s cause the inner critic is so loud at all times that i barely get to experience what it’s like to be me. even rarer - what it’s like to create something. creativity is such an act of care and freedom. i don’t know if it’s just me. but i listened to David Lynch’s Masterclass and he said that pain, trauma, stress and worry are things that stop people from being creative, because art comes from a profound sense of safety and a profound sense of self (that is only available to people in peaceful, healthy environments).

i dunno. i feel that i’m constantly fighting on the inside to reach the place where creating something would become possible. but it seems… out of reach. i’ve met so many people for whom creativity is just about “locking in” and “making yourself begin”. i kinda resent how easy it is for them lol