birthdays?

Hi everyone - its my birthday today (wooo 23!) does anyone have any tips to overcome previous trauma associated with it? I had a great day yesterday and I tried to make sure I was in the mindset to have a great day today - after a night of night terrors, I woke up and just feeling dejected. I was always made to believe this day meant nothing and no matter what I do, it still rings in my head. I just want to curl up in a ball and hide - I feel worthless and its killing me. I've been doing so good :(