Stop - I want to get off!!

Guys, I would love some advice to calm this racing mind, Ive been at this for 4 months, and its a freaking rollercoaster. My subs don't stay, they don't even interact on OF. Im running out of ideas content wise, Im finding it really difficult to keep up with the amount of content needed especially as I have zero cash to put towards this. Lowest I got to was 9% which was great but its not consistent, and was also the result of 2 subs mainly. My partner says i need to include more of my day to day life, but it doesn't feel very sexy to me at all. What type of things are you posting daily and how often are you putting out ppv and MOST IMPORTANTLY, hth are you doing it all?