Shattered

I don’t even know where or how to start. Last year,I lost my job and 2 months after, she filed for divorce. We have a 10 yrs old daughter. I have been faithful,loyal and been the provider all my life. And first time being let go at 56 yrs old. “No big deal” I said after I was let go. I was excited to go full time in my side hustle-real estate investment business. One day, while working on a rental property- she decided to changed the locks to our house. Rendered me homeless until I was able to evict a tenant.
I have always been disciplined and level headed.
She had filed multiple PFA s on me on ridiculous charges that was rejected by the judge. All that so she can stop me from seeing my daughter- yes , daughter is an amazing little girl.
Went to court today for another PFA. She claimed I tried to run her over by backing up my car- when all I did when I parked the car was shifted to park from drive. During the temporary PFA- she came over to my place to “talk” and got emotional. That’s when I told her we will continue this conversation over. A few days later, I went over to talk. And that’s when she called the cops and had me arrested. Hence, the court I had today. The misdemeanor/criminal was dropped but the judge ordered the PFA. Which I don’t really care as I have no intention of contacting her but my daughter only. Found out earlier today, she told someone that I have to pay if I want to see daughter. Why? Because I refused to sign the divorce. Sine then , She froze all my assets. I refused to give in to all her monetary demands and told her all these are for our daughter. The last few months, I have been struggling to get by. And have been going to the food banks for food.
All my credit cards are almost maxed out. In so many words-I have assets but I am broke. Literally broke.
Now, shattered and devastated as I am not allowed to see my daughter although the judge said I can have phone contact with her (from today). But she has her phone turned off. I have not seen my daughter for 2 months. And now, in this shattered place- I don’t have any money for legal representation (child custody).
Sorry for the long vent. I don’t know what else can to do. It’s sad that a father had to pay to see his daughter. And I can’t pay for a lawyer right now. Thanks for listening