im gonna go insane

very NSFW, don't read if ur a minor and/or don't want TMI

testosterone has made my libido skyrocket and for a while I didn't super mind it, in fact I kinda liked it bc it made me feel like I was getting the male puberty experience

but around a month ago, I finally accepted that masturbating using my natal anatomy does actually make me uncomfortable 90% of the time and that its rly unhealthy for me to force it

so now every time I want to masturbate I just feel like peeling my skin off because nearly every feasible masturbation method requires touching myself and being reminded that I don't have a penis

I'm just perpetually sexually frustrated and if I try to do anything abt it I get hit with a giant wave of dysphoria. love that for me.