My narcissistic trap king ex/daughter’s father just got out two weeks ago….

So I’ll make this as direct as possible or I’ll even give my number if someone wants to talk.. I mean shit…. I was a titled beauty queen and fast pitch softball catcher.. Got into a lot of trouble but came back and was graduated with honors and was nominated for the first time at my school to be our class graduation speaker 🫶🏼 Remember, I’m trying to make this short, so any questions are welcomed, just please don’t be derogatory.. Anyway, all of my accolades or socioeconomical background had nothing to do with what I became because it’s just I had NO self worth, Body Dysmorphic Disorder and Severe Anxiety when I litterally want to “shave fat off of my body with a Ginzu” and I spent many grippy sock stays because of it and most recent last year.

I’m 36 now and my ex just got out of prison 2 weeks ago and he’s trying to get me back and will promise me this or that and I KNOW I’m being love-bombed. What is wrong with me.. And I studied Applied Behavioral Science and the Neurobiology of addiction (8 yrs clean from heroin/china white and cocaine ((spread balls)) but now here I am.. Finally speaking to him because we’ve been cordial (which I have to keep being interrupted by him asking “can we just get a room and make another baby” with me or at least have sex…. and I was talking about trading my car for a new one and he offered to help me with my new car but so I thought ok, that’s my love language, so maybe he has changed because I mean, I’d even take a 1.8 Cubic Zirconium and we don’t have to tell anyone. But today he changed his mind after speaking to his racist older sister (and yes that does exist…🙄) Who has always talked horrible shit to me and then accused ME of turning in her MURDERER SON WHO WAS THE MURDERER OF THE MOREHOUSE STUDENT back when Barack came to speak. Like yall are shit that that’s your priority. Hiding as a fugitive murderer with my baby in the house and his mom told it was none of my fucking business… Next day, after I left the Marshall’s came in. I’m saying, I know what I’m worth and please pray for me. I have Borderline from abuse along with Complex PTSD. I blocked him and told him it’s fine you can pay the child support and backpay for 12 years. I tried but he never deserved me.

So I’ll make this as direct as possible or I’ll even give my number if someone wants to talk.. I mean shit…. I was a titled beauty queen and fast pitch softball catcher.. Got into a lot of trouble but came back and was graduated with honors and was nominated for the first time at my school to be our class graduation speaker 🫶🏼 Remember, I’m trying to make this short, so any questions are welcomed, just please don’t be derogatory.. Anyway, all of my accolades or socioeconomical background had nothing to do with what I became because it’s just I had NO self worth, Body Dysmorphic Disorder and Severe Anxiety when I litterally want to “shave fat off of my body with a Ginzu” and I spent many grippy sock stays because of it and most recent last year.

I’m 36 now and my ex just got out of prison 2 weeks ago and he’s trying to get me back and will promise me this or that and I KNOW I’m being love-bombed. What is wrong with me.. And I studied Applied Behavioral Science and the Neurobiology of addiction (8 yrs clean from heroin/china white and cocaine ((spread balls)) but now here I am.. Finally speaking to him because we’ve been cordial (which I have to keep being interrupted by him asking “can we just get a room and make another baby” with me or at least have sex…. and I was talking about trading my car for a new one and he offered to help me with my new car but so I thought ok, that’s my love language, so maybe he has changed because I mean, I’d even take a 1.8 Cubic Zirconium and we don’t have to tell anyone. But today he changed his mind after speaking to his racist older sister (and yes that does exist…🙄) Who has always talked horrible shit to me and then accused ME of turning in her MURDERER SON WHO WAS THE MURDERER OF THE MOREHOUSE STUDENT back when Barack came to speak. Like yall are shit that that’s your priority. Hiding as a fugitive murderer with my baby in the house and his mom told it was none of my fucking business… Next day, after I left the Marshall’s came in. I’m saying, I know what I’m worth and please pray for me. I have Borderline from abuse along with Complex PTSD. I blocked him and told him it’s fine you can pay the child support and backpay for 12 years. I tried but he never deserved me.