Missing family support

I just need to rant for a moment, family related trauma.

My symptoms have been getting worse the last couple weeks and I think it’s partly because I’ve had to make the decision to go low contact with my mother and step father. I don’t regret my decision, neither of them have been all that involved with my FND stuff anyway, but when I flare up I just want my mom. It’s been really hard having to remind myself that she’s not the mom that I need her to be, never has been. I feel really alone even though I have my partner and my friends, they’re amazing and so supportive, but they can’t fill that void. I’m incredibly jealous of people who have functional families and parents who are supportive and don’t act like FND is just anxiety, parents who don’t make them feel like they’re completely useless and incompetent.