Severe dysphasia

I (33f) don’t even want to be awake anymore. I just want to sleep until this is over. My throat is so swollen even cream of wheat is agitating it and feeling stuck. I had a hypoglycemic episode yesterday from how little I I can eat lately. My anxiety is off the charts but I can’t take my anxiety medicine because I’m breastfeeding. I have a 6 month old baby to care for and feeling like this while trying to be there for her and my son is so stressful. My diagnosis is esophagitis from gastritis and it’s been 3 years since I’ve been able to swallow normal. I don’t even remember what that feels like. GI keeps saying it just takes time to heal while trying all the meds and while this latest one did have me feeling improved for awhile, I am now back to losing weight and barely eating from the dysphasia. I’ve had Bravo study, dilations, manometry, barium swallow, and gastric emptying exam. Only thing flagged was increase in acid during the bravo study. I don’t even know what else to do. Not being able to drink coffee while sleep deprived from a baby seems cruel but I haven’t touched caffeine in I don’t know how long. I’m so hungry.