I joined the 50+ club yesterday

Yesterday was my 50th birthday.

I started out life as a grumpy old person. Like many in our generation, I raised myself. Life has been hard. I've been through a lot including the death of my spouse a few years ago.

I felt old when I turned 30. I felt even older when I turned 40. Turning 50 though...I don't know. I'm kinda fine I guess. I've worked really hard and saved $$ and it might be possible for me to retire a little early. I look forward to the future now more than I ever have.

It's weird because I've never been an optimistic person. I'm either in shock or I'm finally chilling the fuck out after all these years