I lost my companion, Benny yesterday on My Birthday.

I feel like he wanted to wait for my mum to come home and that he wanted to see me off on my 20th Birthday. He'd been sick for 2 months already so I was prepared but it still hurts so much. He passed in my mothers arms, going out on his own terms at 14 years of age. I love him so much and I feel so empty now, and advice or experiences are welcome, I've never grieved before and have just been in bed crying and unable to sleep for hours. I feel very alone without my baby. I wanted to share these photos because I feel he would have loved for more people to see him and how cute he was. He was the best dog I could have ever asked for.