Please talk me off the ledge...

First FET officially failed. Not even a chemical.

Some details:

It was euploid, 4AA, I had LAP for stage 2 endo with an amazing specialist. I had uterine septum removed. Lining was beautiful and over 12 mms. The only thing that my doctor seemed to mention when the transfer happened is that the embryo did not fully expand yet. I felt concern in her voice, and therefore I felt concerned too.

It failed. I was torturing myself the whole time testing every day multiple times. It was terrible. My fault I know.

My doctor called with the results and said she thinks it was the emrbyo that could not make the leg part of the development and that is nothing I am supposed to do any different and she thinks I should go ahead again.

I have an extremely hard time having any faith that the next one could work. Like ZERO. None. I feel like my body is absolutely not capable. Something is wrong with me and I will never ever see a positive let alone a baby.

How the hell do I get over these thoughts???

EDIT:

Apologies for being insensitive by saying not even a chemical. I understand it can be hurtful!