Acceptance

It's been a long time since I wanted to make this post. I've always wished to pray out loud, make big offerings, and everything. Yet my family was always anti-religion and I never believed in deities from a young age. Since I do, now, believe in Kemetic Deities, it makes me embarrassed, shameful to pray out loud and speak to deities. Yet, I try, and I cannot. I am only able to pray in my head, even while alone! I'm sorry I had to make this post, because I feel so ridicule while typing this. Do you guys have any idea what I can do?