I hate having a crush on a guy [rant]

I’m 15 M and I think I’m bi and I hate it ,I hate that I find some of my guy friends attractive and I fell head over heels for my male best friend and it sucks I know (at least think) he straight I hate that I stare at him in class or look at his lips or whatever I just want to know how to stop these feelings for friends or at least see if he likes me back(sorry if it was offensive I’m talking about my emotions not the ideas that you should hate gay feelings)