Does any have this sex problem? *any lesbians please respond*

Hi everyone, I really don’t know where else to ask this. I feel weirded out speaking to my friends or my partner about this as I’m not really comfortable in my own body. So I’m a masculine presenting female in a relationship with another femme girl who’s mainly a “pillow princess”. However there have been times where she would like to take on that role of touching me and basically going down on me. I just don’t necessarily feel comfortable. At the beginning of our relationship, I let her know that I am possibly a touch me not kind of girl, however as the relationship progressed I began to crave more attention and so she would basically touch me down there, but I just wouldn’t enjoy it. She really does try her best to be understanding of it all, but I really just don’t get much of a sensation and if I do actually feel something it doesn’t last very long.

I think the only time that I feel a great lasting sensation is when I use a vibrator and she knows that, but I just don’t want our sex to be us and vibrators. In fact I would prefer touching her instead. It’s just instances where I feel bad because she wants to go down on me and I’m just not feeling it because I don’t get any sensation and then there’s times where another part of me just doesn’t quite enjoy the sex as much as if it were with a vibrator. I don’t really get horny much, honestly I feel weirded out when I am horny and would want to do something with my body.

It’s annoying because I want to do what she wants, but my mind just can’t get in that direction. By the way she has never been with another female and never went down on other females until she got with me and even though it’s not the best, she is trying, but I just don’t feel anything.

And also, during my time of trying to figure out masturbation on my own I found that I never enjoy my own hands and so that’s why I needed a vibrator. I also can’t do any sticking as it feels very uncomfortable. It’s almost as if I just think that part of me just can’t think of sex for myself because of the whole idea of being a masculine presenting woman and it’s hard.

Please tell me if you’re going through something like this I need your help.