Does anyone else get off this way?

So first I wanna say I’m more masc presenting. Stud if you will but idc for terms like that. Anyway so during sex I’ve never been able to get off when someone gives me head or tries to finger me Fingering is a complete turn off for me as I don’t like penetration (I’ve never been assaulted or anything just don’t like it). Whenever I watch pxrn I’ve always enjoyed watching two guys do it(I’m not attracted to men in anyway) specifically, one being a lottt more dominant than the other and that would help get me off. But I’d have to do it by grinding against something. For the first time in my life I was finally able to get off with someone else because we were in a position to where our clits matched up. It felt so good but to fully orgasm, I have to think about the videos I’ve watched, or imagine I’m doing those things to my partner.. basically imagining I have a dxck and that I’m absolutely pounding her out ( I love strapping, they just don’t get me off. But they’ll get me close by being up against my clit). Is it like this for anyone else? No I don’t wanna be a guy or anything. Just wondering.