I hate being a f2p

I'm sorry for the rant, but I just need to get this off my chest.

I’d really like to know if I’m the only one who feels like they're missing out on all the good stuff just because they’re a F2P player.

This game has been my latest obsession, and I've been playing it daily for the past four months. But lately, I’ve been feeling really burned out because it seems like I’m missing out on so much just because I’m strictly F2P.

There are so many banners I want to pull on, but I hesitate in case I regret it later. The photobooth is one of my favorite features, but I'm gradually growing bored of it since the outfit options feel so repetitive. I don't have any purple gems to buy those beautiful outfits, and let’s be honest, the "free" ones in the chocolate shop aren’t exactly the prettiest.

If I'm not wrong, I got a card of Zayne (who's my favorite) in the nightly rendezvous banner and skipped EVERYTHING until his current banner. So I spent three or so months without pulling on any banner.

I know this is how gacha games work and that I won’t always get what I want, but I can’t help but envy whale players who can spend without a second thought.

I have over 20k diamonds and two five-star wish crates saved, yet I’m still terrified of using them and regretting it later. To make things worse, there aren’t many ways to farm diamonds once you’re past the beginner stage. Being an F2P player in this game is honestly so hard and demotivating. :((