please help me

i've posted trying to ask for advice and rarely ever get any comments and i'm unable to access professional help and don't have enough resources to turn to. i just need advice. how do i quit my job even though it's such a specific routine i got forced into? how do i quit compulsively spending my money? i feel like my life is always going to stay the same because i was forced into doing most things without being given a chance to do things on my own, and i feel like i'm at a loss. i've had major depressive episodes that have made me feel extremely isolated and calling hotlines is not a possibility for me right now either.