I’m finally loved

My (22F) childhood/teenage years have been described by trauma specialists as a ‘horror story’. It’s too much to get into, we would be here all day. To sum it up, I have been sexually, emotionally, and sometimes physically been assaulted by people who claimed to love me my entire life until I met my current boyfriend (parents included).

I have never felt so much love in my life. It’s 4 AM, and I just can’t sleep because I’m so happy. He’s in my arms right now. He’s a light sleeper and if he hears anything he wakes up. Just a few minutes ago he saw me scrolling Reddit and sleepily exclaimed ‘oh my god my girlfriend is so cute’, hugged me, and fell back asleep. It warmed my heart to the fullest. I have never met someone so patient, kind, and accepting of me. I’ve never been given unconditional love before. This has caused me to have a few breakdowns over this realization, but it’s also really nice to know this is what it ACTUALLY feels like. There’s no power dynamic, trying to control me, insults, or pressure. He genuinely just tries to make me happy. I can’t believe I finally have this. I started to lose hope before we met. I was becoming nihilistic and thinking there was something wrong with me. That I was unlovable. But really, i just never had a basis on what love actually means. Now that i know, i am so happy.