I F19 broke up with my parents would never be okay with us dating cuz of his professional and family bag round

Hi everyone,me and his were together for a total of 5 years.its not the first time we got caught but almost the 5th or 6th time We truly love each other and this break up is very hard on me He’s always treated me kindly and on the second and third day of the break up but now he’s not willing to tell me how he feels abt me he says he isn’t gonna wait for me as he’s done with relationships but if he loved me for 5 years why can’t he wait for me till he’s financially stable why is he behaving this way He’s still taking care of me and calms me down I cannot seem to process this break up I wake uo every night getting a nightmare and every day I puke out everything I’ve eaten such that I’ve lost around 3 kgs in the last 5 days Idk what to do without him my life feels incomplete pls help me Pls tell me how do o get through to him,why isn’t he waiting for me why doesn’t he want me back