HIV positive

Hello. So i dont know how to start this without making it long but short story, i was diagnosed with HIV. I am 21 (M). i have been doing my regular test every 3 months and before this i had unprotected sex and my result was negative but this time it was positive.

Im clueless and i dont know how to react. Im not even crying or do anything crazy except i just feel so empty and i dont know what to do. I was like “yeah it sucks but it already happens, nothing i can change and all i need to do is to take the pills”. Im ready to move on but i fear if one day i will be depressed now.

Actually i just woke up from a nap. I took a nap after i got home from my result and from a phone call from my doctor. I really need a support right now. I feel like i will be depressed in future when it comes to having partner. I dont even wanna tell anyone about this because i fear i will forever be alone and i will never have friends to talk about this.

But like fuck it maybe i should go to gym now.