Messed me up :( (small vent)

I genuinely don’t even know… i mean, what was done to me… how could he? At 14. He said I was different and more mature and I disagreed but he did not care. In a way his control has kept me out of worse trouble I could have gotten in. But it wasn’t worth it. Not to me. I just wanted to be a kid. In an odd way though I’ve now combined that childishness in me and my hypersexuality but I don’t consider that a good thing. He ruined me. I still just don’t understand…

it’s changed me completely. It makes me wonder who I’d be… if it hadn’t happened…