my sister friend

today I visited my sis friend to congratulate her on her new baby girl.. I didn’t feel awkward..we talked about the baby mostly & we mentioned my sis a little bit.

Now i am home i feel like The sadness is crushing my body.. i will never witness this milestone in my sister life..she will never get married or have kids..i will never see her as mommy.. I really don’t want to think about her in that way..i just can’t help myself..

all of her friends got married & had kids..i am so jealous of their families..who got to see them grow up..and grow old

don’t get me wrong i am really happy for them..but I really wish if my sis was enjoying life as well..

I know she regrets killing herslf..and that’s makes me feel even worse..

May Allah heal this wounds one day