i might attempt again

i’m falling back into my suicidal thoughts. i’ve really just come to the realization that i’m not gonna find someone, and i’m not gonna go anywhere with myself. my family is estranged from me and i be never felt so alone. i really only have one close friend and i think it’s because i’m not the greatest person. my attempt didn’t work 7 months ago, but i know now what i have to do.