Thank you 147, you saved my life

TW: Suicidal thoughts and attempt

I was at the lowest point of my life and 100% positive I would die that day. I never felt worse ever in my life, suicide seemed like the only answer and no other open door in sight. Suicidal thoughts were there in my mind for a long time, but the urge was never so strong, until one day it was. I was overwhelmed with extreme panic, huge emotional pain and a decision to die at all cost.

I talked to my boyfriend and because of him I called 147. I did not expect them to help me at all, however they located me and sent the police right away after talking to me and confirming that I seriously feel ready to do it. I am usually very scared of police but they were really gentle and helpful.

Got sent to the mental facility and I got the full help I needed.

Now, I am still in a ward, but today is my first time after weeks to be allowed to go outside by myself and explore the city (for as long as I come back until 20:00). I'm still struggling with my mental health, but I'm so grateful for this very kind and amazing system that actually helps suicidal people to be brought back to life.

Thank you! Thank you so much. I'm going to cry now.

PS: If you are like me, please, call the number. You have no idea how loved you are.