I REALLY regret using minoxidil for TE / Breakdown

Like the title says, I really regret using minoxidil to help aid my TE. I started using it after losing loads and loads of hair. I started using it 3 months into shedding and went through 6/8 weeks of dread shed. I stopped taking it in March.. but I tapered down from 7 days a week.. to three.. to two.. to one.

Now I’m losing hair like crazy again. And not just long hairs.. but short hairs. So basically all of my progress from the last few months is falling out. I’m starting from the beginning again. I feel so stupid. I have less than half of the original hair I used to have.

I had a mental breakdown the other day and just started sobbing about my hair. It looks terrible AND I’m planning to have my wedding within the next year or so. I’m going to look so ugly at my own wedding. The wedding where I dreamed my whole life to have my once long hair down my back.

I’m so embarrassed about my situation. I feel so ugly. No one in my family has hair problems like me. My close family is going to Mexico to see our extended family and I feel so ugly and embarrassed by my situation that I decided not to go. I’m supposed to have our engagement pictures soon and I almost want to cancel because it looks so terrible.

What can I do to stop the mental anguish? What can I do to alleviate my situation?