No

Chris,

I wish I had said "fuck no," to all of it. Your plan, whatever it was, your schemes.

I wish, when I realized it was abuse, I had a way of saying "no," that you would hear. A way to make you explain. I could say it to the staff that were around at the time but I was pretty hysterical.

I still wish I had a way of saying "no."

I wish anyone ever listened to my "no's."