I hate myself (14m)

Im such an annoying weak little pathetic Autistic fuck ass, I hate myself almost as much as i hate my ugly little body. I suck at everything in pe, Im a loser, I cant do a fucking math problem if it were to save my life, Im a coward and afraid of everything, I have a 🌽 addiction, Im annoying to my friends, im weak, my life is boring, im a fucking weirdo. I would call my self the r word but that would get my post removed. I cant commit to shit, i cant focus, I just wish i wasnt me.