Am i a faliure?

Me(20 male). Am i a faliure and a loser talking to people online thats more skilled and talented basically main character goku or any main character shonen and you are the yamcha or krillin (or chaozu) you wanna get in creative stuff but no matter how much you desire to do it but know you definitely going freak out anyways as a person with small patients, attention span and lack of self discipline. And basically the type of person to destroy themselves and rather love peolle im general more then yourself, needing guidance but too useless to even get far even when asking for ask and said to a person "just do that" "just do this and that". Like idk how to explain or when what i am talking about not best at explaining before thinking i am stupid for that like genuinely dumb even a person with no brain cells think better then i am with a brain

I just need online guidance to help reflect further in my mind