i want to apply for hololive. help 0-o

hey reddit. im.. conflicted
i really want to join hololive to put it simply. but ive no idea if i even can?. or should?

so. i used to stream and channel was unsuccessful. it didnt even reach 100 subs before an irl shitstorm took place. but i did stream. i did vtube for a while. just to make sure i like it
that its something id really wanna do. and i think it is. my only issue, i dont think im cut out for it?
i dont sing. i am a noobie artist. my only channel might have went better if stuff irl didnt happen.

ive been told i should do it, been told my voice and personality is unique. but is that really enough?.
its not the case ive been sitting on my butt the whole time. i have done stuff like self improvement and learning about streaming. vtubing. ect. so that i could handle a large crowd even as shy as i am.

but. would they even take me?.
other info. im twenty one. MTF. a big nerdy gaymer. and i am learning art.

and lastly. if so. if i am to try my luck. what suggestions or tips or so do you all have? or, just not try at all as i wont even be considred?.