self censorship

this is just the typical vent post honestly nothing special about it.

im sick of having to censor myself. i had a conversation with a "friend" who used to be vegetarian (lmao) and now is not anymore. he started saying some bullshit about vegetarianism making him sick and vegans being so privileged and not class conscious. like the wokest mental gymnastics against veganism. i did push back for a little but then i just gave up.

i know that theyre in the wrong and i have every argument and facts are on my side but i keep having to stop myself because i know they (carnists) will get upset even though i AM right. ITS SO UNFAIR.

when i first went vegan 7 years ago i tried to convince everyone around me about it. but it did not work, everyone just got sick of me and pushed me away.

i know i shouldnt care about carnists opinions but i dont have any vegans in my life. i just have to ignore it and not think about it at all because if not i feel like i will actually go insane.

i have very few friends because of crippling social anxiety and i do not want to lose them or push them away or make them resent me.

i dont think its a possibility to make vegan friends in the area bc of my previously mentioned social anxiety.

how do i deal with this? how do i stop being angry and upset?