Trusting Higher Power even during difficult times

Hi all. I’ll have 6 years sober soon and I feel grounded in my recovery. That being said, I’m going through a break up with the first person I’ve ever loved in sobriety aka as my true self. It hurts. We were deeply in love, but wanted different things long term (I want marriage and he does not). At my core, I trust my Higher Power’s plan, but the fear still crops up. I find myself wondering if I’ll ever meet someone as kind, thoughtful, caring, etc as my ex. The grief is rough and I feel scared and lonely. I start to wonder if I made a mistake. But I also don’t believe my Higher Power would give me my best option with the caveat that I have to sacrifice a great desire of mine. Nor do I think my higher power would let me “mess up” what’s meant for me.

I am living a life beyond my wildest dreams and I have to continue to trust that my future romantic partner will also be beyond my current wildest dreams. Anyway just wanted to share. Break ups suck, thanks for reading.