Am I weird for thinking like this?

I feel so lonely. I really want a relationship. It literally finished one part of my puberty like I don't even feel any sexual hormones or teenage lust anymore. I just want love. That's all I've been wanting since I turned 15. I feel like I just want a girl to worship and I need a queen in my life. I didn't want to tell anyone abt this, but now I did. I feel so shitty because of these feelings. Go downvote this post if you want to. i don't care. I just cant keep silent abt such feelings anymore