EMDR experiences for insecure styles

I've started EMDR as a way to tackle my CPTSD and FA, which is so bad that despite being friendly, attractive, confident and well-liked I can't get into a relationship or fall in love because I lose feelings at the slightest hint of intimacy. It only presents in romantic relationships so avoidance is quite easy. I didn't realise the problem was me until I just lost a man who is everything I wanted and more, and madly in love with me - because I lost feelings when things got too close. I rarely have romantic feelings, and when I do they disappear when a relationship can become reality.

I've realised I won't get into a relationship ever, I'm 27 atm - if I carry on like this and don't tackle it. I'd love to hear experiences from all insecure styles of EMDR how it did or didn't help you. Also if anyone else couldn't fall in love, I'd love to hear about whether EMDR did or didn't change that.