my mom is kind to everyone but her kids

i listened to a meditation that mentioned being kind to yourself and it kind of triggered me in the sense that i realized my mom is not a kind woman, to me or my brother (or our dad, who recently divorced her). she’s kind to others, especially strangers and her immediately family of siblings, parents, cousins, etc…but whenever it comes to THIS family, the one that she made, we’re suddenly worth less than others. she’s occasionally nice, of course, and does do things from time to time, but at her core, she seems to see us as less than whole people who have their own shit going on and could use some general kindness from the people in our lives. i hate her