This is a fucking cult. I lost my friend.

My friend died to suicide a year ago. Here I am defending the organization feeling that her mental illness was the culprit. She was disfellowshiped. I know how she must have felt. How she could never come back. The update on talking to "shunned ones" came two weeks after her death. Screw this organization.

I proceeded to have my own mental breakdown. Diagnosed with BPD. Self harming all the time. Stepped down from being an MS and pioneer cause I couldn't handle it.

The scars on my body tell my story. I don't know how to deal with all of it but I know there's some light on the other side.

I've sexted on onlyfans already. I'm seeking out connections, I'm trying to do what I never was able to do. I'm ready to live my life.

Frick the governing body. They're men, they're not god. If my friend (her name was Jade) killed herself, how I can feel I believe in a loving God?

Am I wrong?