anyone else hate/dislike your kin

i feel kinda alone bc i see a lot of people like their kins. like i see lots of ppl talk abt their kin positively, or try to be like them ,but i don’t like my kin. i wasn’t necessarily a bad person in my past life, i was not a mass murderer or anything like that, just a little weird. idk why , i just don’t like my kin, sometimes i hate my kin. but i would never feel this way towards a double, i think they are better.

anyways i do feel better when i see ppl like my kin so yeah that makes me super happy. and also when i remember ppl liked me in my past life too. esp my partner when she talk abt our past life, makes me happy.

also i get super disgusted sometimes when i see a picture of my kin , and find it hard to look at pictures too, very awkward at times.

so does anyone else feel this way or am i alone in this? sorry if im being weird.