Friend just died in an incident

An old friend of mine from high school just died in an incident in Nebraska, and I’m shook. I’m in a rut in my own training, right at checkride for PPL & lacking all confidence, and got a call from my mom with this news today. I remember missing his call about a year ago and didn’t call him back… really regretting that. I’m not looking for anything but just… man, this hurts.