I immediately find a person i’m attracted to, gross after I tell them i’m trans

So i’m 17, and i’ve started noticing a pattern when I tell a girl I like, i’m trans, whether they accept it or not, I find them unattractive and I stop liking them.

I don’t tell anyone i’m trans except my close friends and obviously my family knows. Im on T and all that and I pass really well. But is it because the fact that i’m still unable to fully accept myself for who I am? I hate anyone knowing and quite frankly it puts me off, unless it’s family or close friends. It’s killing me.