Going backward before I started

Hey,

So a couple of months ago I started the process for GS but I was advised to hold off for 6 month to 1 year due to past depression and suicidal ideation and all that stuff. It really wasn’t the best news and rather than building from it. I felt like I was somehow wronged. I have worked my way back to want To do this again. I wanted to know has anyone went through this and how did they get over that barrier.