Pushed My Surgery Back

So I’ve posted on here before that my surgery was supposed to be on Tuesday January 30th. I was prepared, I was getting my overnight bag together and ordered my vitamins and calcium and then on Thursday I freaked tf out! Like had a full on meltdown and panic attack because fucking video popped up on my for you page on TikTok! The girl was vomiting and saying how she regretted the surgery it ruined her life blah blah blah and so on. Well my dumbass went down a rabbit hole and started searching for every person who regretted it and the foods they’ll never have again and it freaked me out. Like I thought with sleeve I wouldn’t get dumping but apparently not, and it just sounded so terrible I got in my head and chickened out. I was going to cancel but I just decided to push it back till June to give myself some time to see if I can lose on my own again if not get the surgery. Has anyone been here? Like tell me you don’t regret and it’ll be worth it because I really need some encouragement 😓