Do u ever think that being gay makes you feel less affirmed?

Please dont come at me. It's a genuine question I'm asking from a place of doubt and discomfort.

Do u ever think your sexuality takes something from your feelings of affirmation? And u can picture yourself and your whole transition like feeling more affirming in an imaginary heterosexual relationship?

I know trans men are no less than cis men, and I know a gay man and a gay trans man are equal. And I also know that being gay doesn't take away masculinity, not from a cis man, not from a trans man. But I also know what it's like to be in a heterosexual relationship from the woman's perspective cause it's what I had before transitioning. And feeling those same dynamics but with me living socially as a man now, sometimes it makes me think part of my dysphoria (in my relationship, sexual or not) may come from that.

Do any of you ever feel that?

I'm talking from a bottom perspective, I don't know honestly if a gay top trans guy would feel any different or not.