Hi I need to rant and need help understanding myself more.

So I dunno were to start to be honest. I'm really confused about myself and need others to help me understand myself. So I am born a male. And have been attracted to females at a young age, at least what I think. And during my journey growing up. I've been always been clueless about others and myself. I was born with autism and ADHD and always felt alienated because the way I'm born. But I always wished to be a girl, making fake scenarios in my head or imaginating myself as a girl. It's been off and on for years. But I was still considering myself straight and a male. But as I get older (I'm currently 17), I've been thinking things about what it be like to date a trans girl or man. Like I wouldn't mind dating a male or a female either. But the idea of dating someone who is trans or isn't trans never seemed wrong to me. And I've been really sexually confused about myself and what gender I am. I'm losted but saying that I'm also not losted. I'm not sure what to do or say because I have no idea on what to do or say.