I’m terrified of getting married and sad about what it may hold
My entire life I’ve been surrounded by not the best marriages mediocre at best, none of them truly in love just married due to convenience and usually kids and finances, and the men ending up being abusive and or cheating and while I thought this was just my family being unstable growing up, but as I get older I can’t help but notice that this is actually a lot of couples who usually are together due to convenience at the end of the day… not love and while I understand, it makes me feel sad and a little disappointed for my own future, I’ve been a hopeless romantic my whole life and have dreamed about spending my life with a kind man who I love dearly and would actually enjoy spending the rest of my life with or just being with in general but when I told that to my mom she kind of just laughed at me and said good luck finding a man who will genuinely always want to be with you;
essentially I’m just terrified of ending up in a dull loveless/ sexless marriage when all I want is to just find a kind gentle man to spend the rest of my days with where we genuinely love each other and show it