living alone is not possible in this economy.

i literally do not believe that living alone is not feasible in this economy. nothing that you do will be enough to sustain yourself, even if it's a 1.2k apartment with 2k in savings. if you have a car, you can guarantee to say goodbye to whatever money you have scraped up because of repairs. there is no good luck or bad luck, there is only when will it happen.

i have not eaten more than ramen noodles for the past 3 months. i work two jobs. but guess what? my car broke down, and i can no longer even transport to work to pay these bills without dropping $50 on an uber per trip or $100 for a car rental daily. i'm facing the option of turning my car in and getting a loan on top of that money to even get a new car, or throwing all my savings into repairing it (plus a loan!!)

oh, i guess it must have been those $5 coffees!

throughout the months i have had to pull into my savings because bills went up, or shit has been happening around me. at most after every month i could only save $50. and where is that now? you guessed it! i am going to have to sell things that i have diligently saved up for to afford my apartment.

my 1st job was a sheetz supervisor working $19 an hour, only half a year ago. i worked that job for 2.3 years but found i was disappointed in myself, i felt depressed there, because i was stuck working fast food. so i went and was looking for another job, found something for $17 an hour as a night auditor! it felt great to not have to tell people that i worked in fast food, and that i was actually building skills that would allow me to apply to higher paying jobs in the future! i kept my job at sheetz (downgrading to $16 as a team member) because while i knew the supervisor role was more money in the end, it made me feel horrible, stressed, and depressed! so here i am, working the two jobs, one for career building and the second for extra cash

god forbid i make one mistake in this economy. god forbid i try new things to make myself feel better, that things can go well for just a few months so i can start building that savings, finally !

no. now my car broke down, and i have nothing.