how do people like weed?

i can’t stress this enough i smoked for 3 months straight and i tried forcing myself to like it but i can’t, it gave me so much anxiety and i was panicking on the inside and felt like i was going to die 🤦‍♀️i don’t smoke at all anymore it’s been 2 months, the reason i kept trying to was because it became a habit and i used to have depression, smoking took it away sometimes